ok im gonna go out in the night without socks and shoes now i think
and probably either trip and fall on my face or get glass in my foot
its not even dark its boring
i need to think
LIFE IS SO SCARY LIKE YOU JUST HAVE TO KEEP WORKING AND WORKING AND WORKING AND PAYING BILLS AND BUYING THINGS AND TRYING TO STAY ALIVE AND YOU NEVER REALLY GET A BREAK OR A HOLIDAY AND NO MATTR WHAT YOU DO YOU CANT ESCAPE THE ENDLESS PRESSURES THAT SURROUND YOU AND THEN YOU GET OLD AND SICK AND THEN YOU DIE AND THATS YOUR WHOLE LIFE
yeah
it sucks but you have to not care and then it may be better i think
if you try and not do all the things that you’re told or expected to do and do what you want to people will give you crap and life will be difficult but it will be better i think and you will probably care less about stupid and bad things and more about important things after a while
and hopefully the bad experiences that you will have when you go against the flow will coalesce with the good and make you able to take the world into your hands, at least the bit with you inside
but yeah that’s difficult and life can indeed be fucking terrifying if you let it
